Me: I feel like I hate you!
God: "Oh, really. Tell me more." (He leans forward A bag of popcorn materializes in his hand. He starts munching.) "This is getting good!"
Me: I am afraid I will hurt you.
God: "You have only ever hurt me the tiniest pinprick compared to all of the love you have given me."
Even though the world with God is wonderful, we hesitate to trust. It's been cold and rainy for a long time, and although our walls may be not very nice, they make us feel safe. It's hard to step outside and give ourselves to something new. After 22 1/2 years of baby steps, I realized I hadn't made it very far. I felt guilty and afraid. I knew I was angry with God. Would he be angry with me? With prayer, I realized that when people expressed emotions honestly to Jesus, he responded with compassion, mercy, love, and salvation.
Thomas got proof when he doubted. Put your finger here; see my hands. (John 20:24-29)
Martha’s faith grew when she blamed Jesus. Your brother will rise again. (John 11:17-27)
Nicodemus was given truth when he questioned. For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:1-20)
The Prodigal Son’s older brother was reassured when he expressed bitterness. My son, you are with me at all times, and everything I have is yours. (Luke 15:11-31)
Peter received a new purpose when he tried push Jesus away. Don’t be afraid; from now on you will catch people for eternal life. (Luke 5:1-11)
Me: I am sorry I was so awful.
God: “Not awful, understandably angry."
Me: I blame you for this!
God: “I hope you do. It's better than blaming yourself for something that wasn't your fault.”
God: "Don't feel bad. You're working through hard issues. Step forth with me again. Let me heal you."